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I don't know why, but I usually don't "dream" or as others say remember my dreams. But when I do, the most vivid and graphic dreams I have in my life, are always nightmares. So I don't mind not dreaming most of the time anyways. But here's one most recent. Usually people share exciting dreams, but I only have sad ones to share. But as the proverb goes, "Shared joy is double joy, shared sorrow is half a sorrow."

You walked in. The first thing that caught my eye were your lips. Then your eyes and your nose. Your hair bounced lightly next to your cheeks in curls. You were stunning. I rushed over to embrace you and as I drew near, you turned. I saw another man enter. There he was, ambiguous and yet familiar. I knew him, and yet I didn't. He had no form or shape that caused one to envy, yet his charm I felt had deceived you. Then I wondered in my heart why was he here? Will you tell him to leave? I wish to tell you how you were beautiful, yet it was still painfully repressed in my heart. Our space felt invaded. Then you asked him if he was ready to go? Go where? I thought. Then I realized you asked him on a date. You had dressed up for him. Yet you weren't smiling, it was distant but intentional. I wasn't expected to come. I than began to pace, back and forth, storming around you, hoping you would notice, maybe even give an explanation. Silence. You both got into a car. You drove. You were gone, without a word or glance.

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I guess a lot has changed in the past 3 years. I am finishing my undergraduate studies now. Google has taken over blogger. My past is still here. But a lot has changed. All that I have written in my other blog will not be forgotten. But here's to living a life for Christ.
I haven't decided yet which I will continue to write in, but as I go to Gordon-Conwell I will aim to live more openly about my faith.

Another season has passed, another season is about to begin.