0731

I have so much I want to tell them. I wish they would just listen to me one last time, but I guess I messed up. You were right, once you mess up you can't get it back. I love them; I don't know why, but I see so much potentional in each of them. Potential that I ruined, hindered, blocked from learning, experiencing, renewing.

It begun just with them two. Then it grew, more and more came. Now they are a happy family, a family I never experienced there. I was never really a leader, and now all I can do is pray. I pray that they grow with each other, struggle with each other, and ultimately know you together. Until then I don't know if I can handle the risk of messing up again. Ultimately I am disappointed in myself, God blessed me with such a wonderful group and I took that for granted.

0718

So a post talking about my taiwan trip has been long overdue. There was once that quote in TOK, but I seem to forget who said it. It goes along the lines like this, "the human incapability to share or express first hand emotions and experiences cause the human race to truly be lonely." Although poorly chosen, the quote truly describes the limitations I now face to put to words the joy, lessons & freedom I experienced in taiwan, but here I go... (forgive me for the disarranged order of this)

Prior to the trip, I remember doubting my choice in traveling so far, and spending so much money, but now after it all I am truly grateful that I had the chance to do this. Thanks for those who made it possible for me <3

I lived with my grandma in taiwan, and oh man was it a real new experience. No a/c, no hot water, living with a cockroach as my roommate was truly new to me, but after all of this I think I really grow to appreciate the advantages we are blessed with in America. However, with the appreciations also came the depreciation in how lousy&overpriced the food in America is. Haha my grandma told me everyday before I went out, that my experience here in taiwan was going to be part of my future forever, and she was glad that she could be part of it even if it was small contribution on her part. I love my grandma :)

Going out everyday for three weeks in a row is truly a new experience I longed for since middle school. The public transportation system in taiwan really allowed the new environment to become explorable & with friends the trip became that much more memorable. Although I didn't really get to hang out with one friend throughout the trip I believe the reliance upon and time spent with them allowed me to learn so much about them I wouldn't have known in America.

For the new friends I made in taiwan, I really admire them. Their sincerity and pureness in welcoming me allowed me to feel right at home. The deepest memory I will have of taiwan was the night trip up to yangming shan to see the night scenery. Although I haven't seen them for three years, the moment we met again we were able to converse as if we had seen each other only the day before.

Going into daily details will make this post way too long, so here goes the short summary:
museums, nightlife, random malls, nightmarkets, movies, mountains, car trips, mrt hopping, crashing cousins place, random strolling, rollerblading, beach, sogo, 101, eaaaaating. !

Can't wait to have another trip, maybe visit taiwan in 4 years again :)

0711

why'd you have to do that ?

you're so stupid .

that's all I have to say .